Earlier this year, I came off a full time work schedule and a laundry list of responsibilities. Cutting things away from my life, I thought, promised deeper emotional stability with physical energy to spare.
But I'll say it again, a strange things happens when you slow down. I started to notice all that was out of place. It was only after I stopped whirling did I start feeling the extreme fatigue mid-afternoon. Then, came the awful memory and brain fog, the terrible bloating and irregular digestion. Though, the worst were the cold, wet trenches that were my emotional lows. Had it always been this way?
I attempted change! Moved my diet around, hopped on the bike more, went for walks. I reached out to old friends and tried making new ones. Nothing seemed to work. I only felt weaker and more frustrated with myself. A few months of bearing this, after a bad stomach attack and a painful dehydration spell, I stopped self-diagnosing and finally saw a doctor. Yes, he treated the symptoms but more important, he addressed my rather startling nutrition deficiencies. Vitamins B, E, C and D were all near missing from my system. My low iodine levels were equally as alarming.
All external effort was coming up empty as my body was desperate for the basics to function. As if my internal systems had been short staffed, overworked and underpaid for the past few years and I was expecting it produce good work. I took the prescribed doses and began to feel like a different person, the changes seemingly overnight. I noticed in my energy levels but more so in my emotional stability. My moods neutralized and I could sincerely engage with others and be fully present. My brain sharpened and I could think clearly.
Since that first visit, I've spoken to other doctors with hopes of understanding the other hows and whys of my vitamin deficiency. Reports came back as a combination of a poor diet but also disregard for my maintaining balance in my good to bad bacteria ratio (more on gut health soon). All doctors confirmed high toxicity and acidity in my body as another culprit.
For where I am right now, in a stage of rebuilding my body, taking vitamins and supplements has been absolutely necessary. With other lifestyle changes, I feel like my old self, renewed. My aim is to be able to retrieve all of what my body needs from more natural sources but it's near impossible at the moment with the quality and availability of nutrient dense foods (another note on that to come). And though I only seem to be picking up more questions on this long road to wholeness, now I have the energy to keep asking them.